Lots of things I read in the bible frustrate me, reading it itself frustrates me. It frustrates me that my mind wanders when I read it. It frustrates me that I find it boring at times. It frustrates me that I don't remember what I've read. And the fact that all that frustrates me, frustrates me.
And then when I actually do read and understand it, there is a lot in it that I don't want to do. Some of it offends me. I find it restricting. Some of it doesn't fit in with what I want.
Let's take sinning. Sometimes, I wish the bible said it was alright for me to have sex before marriage. I mean, it would save a lot of awkward conversations, a lot of trouble. It would be easier to relate to my friends. I would be able to have some fun along with the rest of them. I could let loose a little.
And then there's the golden rule. Where it says to love our neighbours. Not just the ones who run up and down the stairs on the other side of my wall at all hours of the night, but everyone. Every rapist, every criminal, every big issue seller, every backstabbing person in my surroundings, every strong accented Belfaster. Everyone. Now sometimes, I think my life would be easier if I bent that rule and held a couple exceptions, a couple grudges. Not only them, but we're to love God too. A God who doesn't put an end to slavery and hunger and cancer. A God who is all powerful, all knowing, but lets me bask in my own doubt and doesn't just come knocking at my door, greeting me with a hug, saying "hey, let's spend actual time together!".
Why bother?
Let's get some perspective. I'm 2 centimeters taller than the average woman, but I'm actually rather small. Put me in a field, go a few hundred (thousand?) meters up into the air, and you won't be able to see me. Take a look onto our galaxy from one of the other ones, cause there are loads more we don't know about, and there won't even be a view of our earth. We're small. Compared to God, we're ridiculously small.
And he's big. Immeasurably big. He's so big, we can't exaggerate how big He is. To try and exaggerate Him would be an insult to how big He is. We're small, He's big.
So then, naturally (not!), we pick and choose bits of the bible we like. Francis Chan puts it like this: if you say there cannot be a God because you suffer, we suffer, then you're right. There isn't a God that fits the mold you want Him to fit. He's independent of you, and far greater too! So if you take certain aspects of who God claims to be, and refute others, then you're being your own God. You're not letting God be God. If a five year old decides she likes her dad's rule about being able to stay up an hour later on weekends, and is happy to obey that one, but thinks his ideas about not being allowed to walk on her own to school are preposterous, then tough! Her dad isn't going to step back and let her have her way because she doesn't agree with his philosophy. If he did, he wouldn't be acting as a parent. As a loving wiser being with her best interests in mind, he has a more accurate idea of what's good for her, regardless of what she thinks.
We hate this. In the world we live in today, intellectually minded, with an obsession with logic and being "open", the idea of putting what we think aside and surrendering ourselves to what God wants is so offensive. But ponder this: does the fact it's offensive make it wrong? Is it God who's wrong, or is it our cultural incline? Is it a God who is beyond time, ever constant, never changing, who is mistaken, or a trend that has only really been popular for a century, that will probably evolve into something new before 2076? Is it about what God thinks, or about what you think? How much more enriched would our lives be if we communicated our frustrations to God, told him what our problems with Him were, gave them over to him, and obeyed him anyway, trusting and knowing that we'll benefit from it?
He's big, we're small. But like the five year old's dad, He wants what's best for us. We may not agree, we may not want to, but He knows what's best for us. God is FOR us. Our small minds can't handle His bigness, hence the frustrations creeping in. Which is why we need His help to understand Him. Pouring out our frustrations to Him is what He wants us to do with them. We don't need to worry about the small things, we've got the big with us. So we can be big, and do big, we've just got to give up the small.
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